You guys, I am SO bad at time management and getting stuff done. I have serious time management problems. I can easily spend time making lists, planning, creating a system, but when it comes time to implement it sits. I have so many old planners that I find and throw out because a single page was done and now it is drastically outdated. It’s odd too, because in the right situation I am a worker bee. If you tell me these boxes need to be moved over there, I am at it. No problem. If you tell me these boxes need to be organized, filled, and moved, I will struggle. I guess the problem may be breaking jobs down into reasonable chunks. Taking a task and making it manageable., that’s my real struggle. I suppose maybe I get overwhelmed very quickly, and when I get overwhelmed I shut down. Anyone else like that? “Well, I don’t don’t where to start, so let’s just sit on the couch and relax until I figure it out. ” Needless to say I don’t get done what I should. It’s across all aspects of my life this struggle.
This leads to some massive problems with my goals in life. You see, I want to design patterns, (sewing patterns, embroidery patterns, quilt patterns, etc) I want to design fabrics, I want to paint and sell prints of my paintings, I want to be like this awesome artist and designer. The problem is that I can’t manage to get myself to do the actual work. I will daydream about the massive farm I’ll buy when I get where I want in life, I’ll shop around for places to sell my work, but I won’t actually get to the business of doing the work. For over a week now I have been saying that I WILL paint every day. Something small is fine, something simple is fine, so big requirements, but to paint every day. Guess how that is going? Remember my mushroom that I made a day or two after getting my new supplies? That is the only thing I have painted. When I started this blog it wasn’t meant to be JUST yarn based, it became that way because it was easy to sit and knit or crochet instead of doing anything else. It’s easy to grab a ball of yarn and hook from next to the couch, sit on the couch and work, BUT it’s a lot harder to go dig out my quilling supplies, make a plan, get to work, and make a quilled item to show you. It’s harder to dig out my paints, sit at the table, pick something to paint, and actually do it. Mind you, my house is FILLED with art and craft supplies all over the place, so it isn’t any actual work to get these things. If anyone has great advice or suggestions on this I will take it. Book recommendations, anything.
This leads me to a surprising part of my day today. I opened up to my son about this struggle, expecting his sarcastic almost 11-year-old self, to say something completely unhelpful, or just plain off the wall, and do you know what he said? “I’m pretty good with time management, I’ll help you.” He then proceeded to walk up to our giant chalkboard and takes notes. “Let’s say you waste an hour a day, *writes ‘1 hr’ on the board* start taking just 15 minutes *writes that too* and spend that on your website. THEN spend the rest doing other stuff for your business. After you’re used to 15 minutes, start doing 20 minutes *write that under the 15* and just keep working like that.” Then he starts to brainstorm things that I can write about, videos I can make for you. It was really amazing. It really made me feel like somewhere along the line I have done right by him, and that even though we struggle he’s going to be okay. Now, let’s see if daily that boy will shut up enough for me to actually focus and work, because man is he a chatterbox!! (He gets it from his Mama.)